I don't even know how to begin to tell you what has been happening to me. I guess I should start from the beginning and, I promise, I will make this as short as possible. Back in January of this year (2003) I just "felt" funny.
For several years, since about 1997, I had began to question the way some "TV" folk and the church that I was attending at that time were "interpreting" the Bible. In December of 2002, I decided, for the first time my 40 years, to read the Bible all the way through (I finished the second week of August of this year, 2003) this was more than a decision I madeit was more of a commandment from GOD.
And what I read in the Holy Bible and what "they" had been saying did NOT match. Needless to say, I started backing off. My mom felt the same way. It's like we could not "get" what "they" were saying! Some times it made me feel as though I was in a foreign land. It was almost like instead of joining the Church Body as described in the WORD I had joined a church "social club" Sometimes I would be a part of it but most times felt I would enjoy being in the kitchen cooking or serving in stead of being served.
My first exposure to the "new way" of teaching the Word was, well to be honest, overwhelming. I have to say, I enjoyed the fun and games. The "confessing" rituals seemed be the "way" to go. But something on the inside of me kept feeling a little off. And I did not read the Bible that much so I really did not "study to show myself approved". My only excuse, it all sounded so easy and wonderful. Just confess enough times and "command" GOD to answer my prayers and violait happenedright. Well, sometimes it did but most times it did not work that way.
Then one day it happened. All of a sudden the "formulas" stopped working. The positive confessions were just empty. I would confess and confess and confessed and nothing worked. Then this thought/voice kind of came up in my heart/mind "they believe and have more confidence in their 'revelation' then in the REVEALER."
I knew then I was not going to go any further in my Spiritual growth until I found out for myself who GOD is and what did I need to do to get back in line with HIM.
After reading GOD's HOLY WORDS...well, I felt foolish and hurt, mainly 'cause I realized that GOD still loved me and was more than ready for me to get to know HIM. Thank GOD for HIS MERCY and great GRACE
I started asking GOD what do YOU want from me. What will YOU have me do for YOU? Honestly, I felt foolish and free (burden lifted) all at the same time. I just want you to know that even though I feel like I am in the beginning stages breaking away...being "purged", if you will, from all of that mess, I appreciate your web site. I now attend a wonderful church that actually teaches the Holy Bible.
I hope that you will continue on the road to GOD's TRUTH. Please, please, please stay encouraged in the path that the LORD has for you. I still feel "behind" in understanding GOD but that won't stop me from moving on to what HE wants me to do. Be BLESSED in the LORD and in the POWER of HIS MIGHT.
Marcia
From: Alabama
Are you part of the Word-Faith Movement? NO
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