Testimony: Wrong is Wrong.

First I must say that please do not do away with your website. It has confirmed so much for me, it has been very informative, useful and restoring.

I am a truth seeker, although it has been a hard pill to swallow. I have been caught up in the word of faith movement, and the charismatic church. I have sent money time and time again to Creflo Dollar and T.D Jakes, looking to be rewarded of God and blessed with an over abundance. Well, I did not see either, at any time.

I have done the false gift of tongues, thinking that it was like a phone conversation directly with the Lord minus the operator (the devil) butting in...well thats how it was explained to me.

I have purchased books on the name it claim it game...I have ranted and raved around the house speaking scriptures demanding them to be fulfilled.

I have been knocked down in the spirit, oh I mean "slain in the spirit". And all the while knowing this did not feel right, but I believed these folks knew better and I just wanted to learn.

Well fortunately God did not let any of these tactics prove fruitful, so I became disgusted and dropped down to my knees asking God for the real deal. Not knowing I was finally reaching our for the real and true God, so now here I am....glad for websites such as yours and knowing that I am not alone in my observations and current teachings which are directly from the bible.

I pray your strength and committment remain steady and blessed in the Lord.

Peace to you and Yours

___________________ (name withheld per request)

Additional Testimony

I remember that I loved the Lord but going to church on Sundays and praying here and there was about all I would do. When I was brought into an organization of women that would meet weekly and fellowship about the Lord.

I noticed that I did not have the knowledge of the bible that they had, they would quote scriptures and I would be thumbing through the table of contents to find out where to go. But from this I became motivated to search the scriptures and read and read and read some more. Now as much as I thought I had an understanding of what I read, when I heard a different interpretation, I would believe it and twist the scriptures to fit what I just learned. I would not only fix my mind, I would convince others around me to believe what I had learned to be true.

I continued this way, questioning but never researching. I believed the Pastor as he taught his new revelations and supposedly clear insight to make easy our way. I remember the pressure that was placed upon me to serve in the church and follow the rules.

How incredible the guilt trip was as I tried to break free from the clutches of this church. I did not know why exactly I needed to leave, it just did not feel good.

When I say feel, I don’t mean that we should be guided by our emotions, I mean that push that as you continue to grow in the Lord, that you realize was the Holy Spirit trying to steer you clear of havoc and chaos.

Well, It would be nice if this was the end, but this was just the beginning. In each church the pastor and his family

became close to ours. This closeness would push my desire to understand and ignore. I would understand that the pastor was human and ignore the fact that she (this time it was a she) was no way close to the word as it was written in the bible. With this church having over 25 members, a familiarity was established, no one questioned anyone, but all the actions were wrong. Forget about motives…wrong is wrong.

This was a charismatic church that believed that the only sign the Holy Ghost could give was to speak in gibberish or the “gift of tongues”. Oh yes, I spoke the gibberish, because I was told it was a line of communication with God that could not be interpreted by the devil. Now my only concern was, that the devil was not the only one that could not interpret it, neither could I. How could this conversation between me and God edify me if I could not understand it?

Well, I got some help with that from the Creflo Dollar Ministry….Creflo said that we are speaking the mysteries of God. And we should just thank him now for the interpretation, because he is working out something for us through this that we are unaware of. So, I rode with this -- I figured what was the point of speaking in my regular language when I could speak in tongues and the devil can’t mess with me and I am unlocking mysteries.

So I commenced to speaking gibberish all the time. How unfruitful, I could not understand my own relationship with God.

This church also believed in slain in the spirit, plenty of times you could come for a visit and find the church laid out between the pews. So, I fell out too, I wanted whatever I could get. In my mind more God, more God, more God. I have heard horror stories of those that past out and got up with demons, but I did not pass out, I fell out, because if I stood there when the pastor touched me, I was refusing the power of God, no one can stand under the power of God...so I fell before I was pushed.

Now I must mention here that I was married and my husband did not participate in my “zeal”. He did not speak in tongues, he did not fall out in the spirit, he was against many of things that the church was doing. He had a lot of questions but at the time he just didn't make waves.

He commented on some things but most of the time just went along. Now when the money started getting low for us and food was running out, that is when he put his foot down on my “tithing” thing. You see, I had learned give all you got to the Church, because if you did not you were robbing God. But give expecting that God will give you ( the same thing) right back.

Well, that is just not so. And I tried over and over to prove it….I have sent money all over the United States to sow seeds into churches that claim they are the fertile soil to sow into. Or give and watch God return it one hundredfold.

Now I don’t know anyone that would not want to get an hundredfold return, and I figured we sure needed it now. So I blessed and sent, blessed and sent, blessed and sent. To this very day I have not seen an hundredfold return…(thank God!).

It was the money that started waking me up out of

the delusion….but the preachers had one more for me. They started to prophesy over my head and my family's head.

God has something special for you -- God has a special ministry for you -- God is going to do mighty things through you and your husband. So I was hooked in again, with the promises

of blessings and new anointing.

Yea right, so now comes the "name it and claim it" game.

Speak positive, think happy thoughts, put your faith in the air, command the angels -- you are a little God so create your dreams.

I tell you, I was hooked, and for the scriptures to back it up, I had them..twisted, but I had them. I had my family all commanding God to get what we needed.

But for a merciful God, me and my whole family would be in hell right now. But for blessing me with a husband who is truly willing to lead his house, I would have lead us to hell. Not getting anywhere, not getting anything, I knew one thing.

It was not God with the problem…IT WAS ME. So I began asking was God the real deal? Why had all my efforts failed?

This was the beginning of this hard road that I am on. That narrow road, that backwoods road, the trail that is very faint, only visible to the seeker of the truth.

The path that all Christians say they are on, but are

deluded. So it’s a lonely road, not the mainstream and few believe what you say is the word but more like your opinion. But the end is eternal life, so my travel is not in vain.

Now my reminding question to myself is twofold. Jesus was mocked, ridiculed, and cast out of many cities. People

are still people, we all the sudden love Jesus now?

The road is narrow and few there be that find it . . . all these people in the mega-churches, and regular-churches, they can all fit on this narrow road?